If you asked me 10 years ago where I would be today, my answer would have been “Hopefully married with kids and definitely a dog, maybe living in a house but that’s not really important. Most important is that my home is an open home, a welcoming home and a home full of love”

Fast forward to today… I’m worn out, still single, no dog, definitely no house, but I think my home has been open and filled with love throughout the years. And for that, I am so grateful!

As I look back (way back!), and see my life, what turns it has taken, what hills I have had to climb, what valleys I have gone through, I can’t be unsatisfied. If I had not gone through all this, I would not be the person I am today. And I’m pretty happy with who I am.

Sure, the circumstances right now are not ideal. My home is a bit messy as I don’t always have the energy to tidy up, and my sink is full of unwashed dishes for the same reason. The outside of my apartment building is not very nice to look at as there is scaffolding all around. The sound of them drilling into the concrete is not the best sound ever. I would have preferred to have met someone to share my life with.

But if I had not gone through life this way, if I wasn’t worn out, I would not be where I am now. I believe in a God who is caring, loving and want my best. I believe there is a reason for my trials. I believe God is working in me to stretch me and to make me stronger in faith! As I previously wrote here (in the post “Gloriously ordinary“) I think hardship is necessary if you want to grow bravely in your faith and your trust in God.

I was watching an online service from Elevation Church, where they said to choose one word for next year. My word is breakthrough! I believe God will break through in my life. And my goal is to let Him! I want to start next year trusting God fully, with my whole life! It will be a struggle as I have a hard time letting go of the steering wheel but life with God is never easy! I have managed to let go in some areas of my life, now I just need to follow with the rest.

If 2017 was not my worst year ever, I would not have let go at all. This is why it is also my best year ever. And I look forward with hope and expectation to 2018. Here are some hashtags that I have made for next year (for me to remember):

#LoveMe2018 #ImEnough #SeeMyselfThroughGodsEyes

This is a New Years resolution I want to make: to be kinder to myself! To treat me as good as I treat others. To not say to me “you are so bad because you can’t keep your home tidy”, “you are not good enough”, “you are not beautiful enough”… I could write sentences all day. This is all so well explained in Christine Cain’s book “Unashamed”! Buy it!! Don’t let the world keep you down! I will try to see myself through the eyes of God.
I challenge you to do the same!

You take two steps forward and three steps back
On a journey of a thousand miles
And you cry and you pray
But you know at this pace you never will arrive

Well I know in your heart you believed from the start
God had a purpose He knit you together for
But life has pulled at the seams
And you’re unraveling
And you can’t hold it together anymore

But God will, He will finish what He started
No thread will be left unwoven
Nothing will be left undone
Every plan and every purpose
That He has will be accomplished
And God will finish what He’s begun

And it may feel like 40 long days in a hard driving rain
Or 40 years in a dry desert sand
But when He’s finished we will see
A beautiful tapestry
And know that nothing has been wasted in the end

Oh, and God will, He will finish what He started
No thread will be unwoven
Nothing will be left undone
Every plan and every purpose
That He has will be accomplished
And God will finish what He’s begun

And we’ll stand as the ones completed
By the miracle of His love
We’ll sing of His goodness and sing to His glory
As we tell the story of how

God has, He has finished what He’s started
Not a thread will be unwoven
And nothing will be left undone
Every plan and every purpose
That He has will be accomplished
And God will finish what He’s begun

I know that God will finish what He’s begun

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