So, since yesterday I got broadband at home! Yay! 🙌 🙌
This means I can Skype with my friends and also that I can stream Netflix etc without worrying about cost!
So I went to Hillsong this Tuesday. They had a team night. Not the best night to be the new person in church but it was good thing I went. I probably have a connect group that I will go to next week and I got to meet some people I can actually say “hello again” to on Sunday. I have made up my mind now, Tonbridge will be my new church in the UK.
Wednesday I went out for dinner with some of the girls from the office. Really nice evening! One of the ladies had a birthday so we celebrated her.
Today is a calm Friday. I came home from work about 5.30 pm and just hung around resting up half an hour before heading to the CoOp, making dinner and enjoying a nice meal.
Ok, enough with the whole “I’m having a blast in the UK”. Here’s some honesty. What on earth was I thinking?! Moving from Gothenburg?! If I would have had a husband at least to move with me I would at least have one person to keep me company. It would have made life so much easier. Then I wouldn’t have to press down the feeling I’m having right now! I’m alone!!! I don’t dare to open that door because I don’t know what’s gonna happen if I do.
But God is not up for making things that easy. He has helped me, lots! Don’t get me wrong, I’m very grateful for that, but I also question my own sanity. But God doesn’t want us to be sane…He just wants us to follow. Have I followed Him by going to the UK? I don’t know!!! But I think I need this, to leave home and the known for a while. To make me trust in Him more than myself.
I am a very positive person, I tend to see the bright side of life and I do now as well, but I’m allowed to moan!!! And now I just feel like moaning!!! And to make things worse, I couldn’t even get a friend to talk to tonight, instead I have to blog about it…You know, because everyone is busy on a Friday night…
Get a grip!!!! I don’t like feeling sorry for myself, it’s not in my nature. I am a doer! I solve problems! If I know I’m going to be alone on a weekend in Sweden I do something about it, I invite people! That’s how I work. But when I don’t have that many people to invite, it makes things hard…
Bah, rant over. Time to do something instead of just thinking/feeling…